Testimony about a hitman for hire
Hello,
I'm writing to you from Malaysia, my name is D.J. Maxx. I am currently in a very unpleasant state, as if I'm losing my mind. I keep thinking a should rent a hitman or a murderer for hire to finish with all my problems. It even feels as if there's a poison inside me eating away at me and making me no longer know where I stand or who I am.
This is happening to me more and more often, and it's been happening since I've been with my boyfriend, so for three years now. I felt like he'd been showing me a string of disrespect from the very beginning, but I stayed.
I've forgotten a lot of these things, but I remember the first one was discovering that he was using two dating sites. He was doing that while we were together and had invited a girl to come and join him at his place.
He told me he wasn't planning on having a relationship with her, but I'll always think he was. I just know that his mother told him he'd done something stupid when he told her about it, and that seems weird to me.
Then he invited an ex of his over the night before I arrived at his house. They slept together because she'd had a little too much to drink, and he says nothing happened. At first, I came to his house on weekends, paying a lot for the train even though I had no income.
I was in love for the first time and didn't want to deprive myself of love. But once I was at his house, I had to consider myself lucky to have hot water to wash. I wasn't allowed to turn on the heat, even when I was sick.
I had to consider myself lucky to have hot water and not have the nerve to ask for more. The apartment was very dirty, as was the food. I noticed he always served me the smallest portion.
I still stayed so I could get affection. When I was in his arms, I seriously thought and said, "This is heaven," and that's why I accepted too much. Twice I tried to leave, one of which, I remember, was the day he compared me to his ex in bed.
I tried to leave a third time. I had gotten my own apartment, but I let him back into my life once again because otherwise it no longer made sense.
I fell back into self-harm (something I'd done in the past, from the age of 13 to 18. I was happy to have gotten rid of that addiction). I had very pervasive suicidal thoughts. So, what I'm about to say only applies to me, but after all that, I thought I just had to stop fighting. Since I'm too weak to leave, too bad for me.
We made the decision to buy a house, and apart from that, the arguments would come back from time to time. He would then threaten me with his fist. It was as if we had reached a new stage and I felt there was no turning back. After that, he called his sister to complain about me without saying what he had done.
I was tired of feeling my image was always tarnished, so I wrote to his sister to tell her what happened. His sister had been living outside of Malaysia for many years so she had an open mind. In the meantime, he went home with her (and when he came back, he told me that if he had stayed with me, he would have killed me).
She supported me, which surprised me. She didn't think of her brother like that and told me that she had experienced violence too. She also advised me never to retaliate with violence, even if it's difficult.
The problem is that it's gotten to this point. I hold back from responding despite the criticism, all the things I do that are always criticized, but sometimes I explode.
I'm tired of everything I do being nothing in his eyes and I have no way out. I think I will go ahead and contact a hitman to get rid of him forever.
I just have enough of him. Last night, I was very violent in my words, calling him an asshole who deserved to be beaten up or killed. I told him that I wanted to blow his head off. I had this image of his head filled with meanness and stupidity.
I yelled at him to go to hell because it's never enough. I gave him the finger, and said he was sick of being insulted, even when I defended myself by proving to him that I do a lot. He laughed, saying that I was completely losing it.
He likes to laugh at those moments when my nerves are breaking down. The only time I thought I'd be taken into consideration was the day all that came out of my mouth was shrill screams. I'd never experienced such pain. I was like an animal, no longer in my right mind. He stopped attacking me, but later he said he was just afraid a neighbor would call the cops and accuse him of abusing me.
That’s it! Just had enough of him so I got in touch with a famous hitman from Malaysia. There are many that advertise their services on the internet. Most of them are scammers but this one was famous for being accurate and real. I contacted him and gave him the information of this mother f@#$er.
After two days he did the task and I paid him the second half of his salary. That was the best decision I took in my whole life. I am now dating a new guy who is not Malaysian, he is much better than that asshole.
